理由は無い。
打电话向和你说话。。。
理由は無い。
如果真得要我讲出一个理由的话。。。
那就是。。。
我想听到你的声音。。。
就是那么简单。。。
就是那么容易。。。
但是。。。
又是最难，最复杂的一件事。。。
很怕你会觉得很闷。。。
很怕你会觉得我很烦。。。
很怕我会让你感到反感。。。
所以，我选择了只说出重点。
那么我的重点呢？
从哪里来？
只有Club 的事情。。。
很少说我的事情。。。
更少说你的事情。。。
因为。。。
我不想要让你烦。。。
你不想要让我知道（？）。。。
所以。。。
我们的距离。。。
越来越远了。。。
随着考试的压力。。。
随着那些人所给的眼光。。。
我。。。
你。。。
越来越远了。。。
这个假期。。。
见不到你。。。
是我最大的难受。。。
打电话给你，本以为可以好过一点。。。
怎知。。。
你的态度是如此的冷漠。。。
可能你不觉得。
但是，
我的心真得很痛。。。
很痛。。。
但是，你说你只想听到重点，那么。。。
我就只说重点好了。
因为你说。。。
你不想要啰里啰唆的事情，很烦。
所以。。。
我苦笑了。
我就也不让你烦。
因为，我不想要你觉得不爽。。。
不想要有看到你为不重要的东西而烦。
所以。。。
我塑短了一天需要和你说话的时间。。。
从2小时30分。。。
变成了2分钟30秒。。。
是没有计算过没错，
但是，我的心情，就像2分钟30秒般。。。
觉得好短。。。
缺少了很多。。。
但是，这未必不是件好事。。。
因为，为了考试而承受着压力的你，
终于有些休息的时间了。。。
我还是不要打扰你吧。。。
ねえ、ご主人様。。。
あたしの気持いは知ってるの？
可能你知道，可能你不知道。。。
但是，
无论你知不知道，
我还是会说一句话。。。
愛している。
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
:: 今週のAries – 嬉しい ::
Insert: Give Me Up (by Tamaki Nami)
Ahh~ How much I love this song~ XD Okay, skip that.
The whole week had a lots of funs, and a lots of troubles.
The good part of this week has… plenty? XD
First of all,
Pn. Lim agreed to let us make the Vampire Knight uniform for us to wear during Hajimari no Aki.
Then, I have finally finished doing, and typing the whole project and handed into Pn. Patricia.
Although she did not said that she approved it, but she’s going to discuss with Pn. Lim.
It means… THIS PROJECT WILL GO WELL!!! YES!!!
Mwahahahaha~~~ My efforts didn’t go wasted!!!
~ Getsuyoubi ~
On Monday, we went to Kou’s house and see him make his experimental toast.
It’s quite nice, yes, but… =w= It requires a lot of time and stuffs… Haiz…
That fella and I were waiting in his room.
What the heck, he told me not to do anything weird!
As if he’s not doing anything weird outside from the room!
With Zen!!! =w=
Grr… I hate him for some reasons…
But thanks to Zen, I have a REALLY good time with that fella~ Nyan~ ^w^
Well, Zen drove us to the Guitar Store to buy the bass.
So on the car, that fella and I were sitting on the back.
We’re like playing and talking…
Then suddenly that fella talked about one topic, and made me go “Nyan”.
The embarrased style of “Nyan”, or the guilty “Nyan”, I forgot…
Then…
I can’t believe that fella let me sleep on!
No, to be exact, I can’t believe that fella put one arm around my neck…
And dragged me to be closer towards the… chest?
Okay, it’s not exactly the chest.
It’s above the chest.
I’m not that short. =w=
Then, that fella go and pet my head, and said:
“He la, he la. (Hokkien? Not sure)”
So I rested my head on that fella’s… above the chest.
(Seriously, what does that part called as? The bone part? =w=)
It feels so good~
But it ends very quickly.
Why?
Thanks to some certain idiots in front of me,
Playing and acting so closely with each other!!!
Makes me feel weird all of the sudden, and blurted out.
“Err… Okay, it’s weird.”
Then that fella replied me while taking the arm back.
“You also know hor.”
Argh! My arm! Ah, no. I mean, that fella’s arm! =w=
It’s not circling me anymore!!! +w+
Grr… I hate you Kou!!! I shall blame you with this!!! \w/
Mrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwww!!!!!! *glares*
So, we’re in Guitar Store after that.
It’s a bass that we wanted to buy.
But that fella didn’t have much money, so I kind of borrow first.
Well, although that fella DID tell me that returning the money is like…
Several 100 years later.
But I paid for it anyway. Haha.
And I do thought of buying that as a gift… Hahaha…
(And I was scolded for saying so. X3
Although I received a pet very soon too. ^w^)
The most amazing thing of that fella is that…
The bass’ original price is RM890.
But is cut down to RM770 (I think, or lower than that owO)
OMG… How can that fella did that?!?!
What did that fella said to the shop owner?!?! Owo
I was kind of shocked when I saw the final price…
After adding in all those champlang stuffs…
Like the bags and all that…
It’s not even the original price of the bass!!!
It’s just RM850-+!!!
OMG!!! OwO
Okay, that fella is really a Kami-sama… =w=
Sasuga goshujin-sama… Sugoi!!! ‘w’
After buying the bass,
we decided to go to Giant in Connaught to see the prices.
So we’re in Zen’s car again.
And… All 4 of us are again, in a very lovely matter.
If I can say that?
Well, at least those 2 in front of us are. =w=
Hate them.
Especially when we’re in Giant.
I can’t believe they’re like, kissing in front of me!!!
GRAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
And I’m like making a big fuss out of it.
That fella heard me, but didn’t know what’s wrong.
So those 2 were asked to do it again,
Against my damn protest about doing it again.
Don’t want to see it again, I quickly walk out.
I knew they did it, and that fella only “Oh”ed at it.
How unemotional. =w=
So after that, Kou asked that fella.
“Ei, you don’t mind kissing with people?”
“Of course. It’s not the first time anyway.”
Then Kou looked at me one kind, and I nodded.
I knew it for a long time.
Well, that fella told me anyway.
Right after Shirly asked me to ask that fella.
So… That fella told me. Yeah.
Although I acted nothing, but actually I’m kind of…
Jealous.
Yeah. That’s the best word… I think?
Because it’s not something that hurts me, but…
Hmm…
Not sure. It’s kinda sour-ish…
So…
Maybe?
Haiz…
Then I’m alone with Zen for a while,
As Kou and that fella are looking at those prices.
So we’re like talking about our relationships.
“Why do you give out so much to that fella?” He asked.
“Hmm… Dunno? Because… I feel like it?”
“You’ll regret later.”
“Ha, talk about yourself.”
“Haiz. I’m very painful now, you know?”
“Yeah, I know.”
Then we’re going to talk more about it,
But Kou and that fella looked back at us.
They have the “What?” look at us, but we shook it off.
Haha?
“Even if you don’t feel anything for me.”
Heh, that fella will never know how I really felt.
To be by side.
To be together.
“Atashi, mada, anata no soba ni itai.”
To be the one that wants the other to be happy.
To be the one that wished self to be happy,
But knows that its hard to achieve.
Still, I’m happy to be with that fella.
“Just because I’m in love with you”
But…
Hey, do you know?
How much that I love you?
How much that I think of you?
To be held by you…
To be whispered by you…
To be with you…
“Nee, shitteru?”
Ahaha, another song of mine.
Okay, don’t mind that, skip~
~ Doyoubi ~
Then... Saturday, my best day...
(And a small event made it turn into a semi-bad day in the week.)
I'm able to go on a date with that fella!!! Nya~n!!! ^w^
I purposely put on an entirely different me up too.
By making myself look more girlish than usual.
Although in Hip-Hop style XD
That didn't waste my 1 hour effort in picking the best clothing.
(That fella said that I'm kawaii~~~ see below.)
Mwahahahaha~~~
I'm so happy 'bout it.
Of course, I didn't put on the happy face...
Just kept on “Yes! Yosya!! Yatta!!!” in my mind.
Hahas?
When we're in Zen's car, we're acting lovely duey again~
Heheheh~
This time, I'm able to sleep longer in that fella's...
Above chest. X3
And... I'm able to pull the arm closer and feel it with my lips.
Damn!!!
It's so smooth!
Yet the master of the arm said it's not...
And mine's smoother.
Huh...
I do think that that fella's arm is smoother though...
We're on Zen's car, and the music is loud like hell.
I can't hear a single word what Kou is talking 'bout.
Then, we're talking about something,
That makes me chose to listen finish Halo first,
Before answering them.
I think it's something that embarrassed me... X3
Anyway, at the back, we decided to move towards the left,
'cause the sun in on the right,
And that fella hates the sun.
So we sat closer, and that feel is really good~
Heheh~
It's not long until we reach times square car park.
Then, we began to notice that there's animal patterns on the pillars.
We're making so much fun out of it. Haha~
The first thing that I do when I straight come down from the car is...
Hold that fella's arm.
Well, since that fella didn't mind, so I just hold it.
Often, I complimented about the skin,
Saying that it's smooth, and rub mine with it.
OMG, the feel is just so good~
(Okay, please don't think pervy. It's just arm to arm.)
I can nearly imagine myself with love patterns all around my head.
Nya~n~
Can't help but meow'ed out~
Hmm… Basically, we just kept on roaming around without a purpose.
Not really that exciting, if you ask me.
And that fella just stop by any bookstores that was spotted.
Haiz…
But I’m still happy, to be with that fella.
At least I can grab on the arm for the whole day ^w^
But one thing for sure is that…
Most stuffs in the food court is UNEDIBLE.
Okay, maybe not that much, but they sucks =w=
Do not simply buy any food.
Of course, you can try out the Italian Food.
Kou said that it’s nice (although he chose other food that day…)
Some bad foods to note are…
The western food that’s cooked by the Malays,
Which they use the BBQ like thing to grill the foods…
Eww…
Never want to eat that again…
After eating, we went and look for A1 Taylor’s location.
But when we phoned them, they said that they’re near Bkt. Bintang.
Not in times.
=w=
What the heck?!
…Haiz, fine.
Well, we ended up in the place where the Japanese Food Fare is held.
Yay~ I grabbed plenty stuffs there~
Mwahahahaha~
I grabbed a lot of chocos, the ingredients to cook cold soba…
And I grab the foods without any limit. =w=
Whatever I see the stuffs that I wanted,
I just grab it and threw them into the basket…
That fella looked at me like this. O0O
Ahahaha… >w>
Ended up… The total is…
RM170++
OMG… OwO
I shocked at that moment…
What’s more heartbreaking than that is…
I accidentally broke a huge glass of wine that cost RM62++
TwT
There goes my items… Giving back to the person…
5555~ TwT
And that basically turn the day quite bad.
But we quickly get over it.
We decided to choose a place to calculate the prices for everything.
So we went to Old Town and take a break there.
The best thing is…
Kou decided to belanja us ^w^
Sankyu ne, Kou~
Still…
I can’t believe that fella ate the egg yorks without anything…
And the worst thing about it is the egg whites are not being eaten…
And what’s next?
Kou and I grabbed the plate away, and stopped the crime (?!).
The law of eating the half-boiled egg is to add the spices in…
WHEN IT’S HALF RAW!!! =w=
This egg… It’s like… 80% cooked…
Haiz…
But it’s still nice. Somehow…
Eggs are always nice… I think?
Yeah…
After the short break, we decided to go back to LM.
We’re in Zen’s car again.
Phew… I’m so tired…
Feel like sleeping…
Then…
I’m in that fella’s embrace again.
Ahhh… This feel is just so nice…
I can smell the scent of the shampoo from here.
Ehehe~ ^///^
Then I asked that fella…
“Do you know why I dressed up like this today?”
“Hmm… Is it because you heard I said something?”
“Mmm… you said a lot of things…
Like…
‘You wear like this will be very kawaii…”
“Yeah. It is cute.”
Nya~n~ I’m smiling inside my heart that moment~
There's more stuffs after that, but I don't want to spread it out...
Not now.
Eheheh~
When we arrived in Leisure, we went to find that fella’s brother.
Well, that fella got no one to fetch back,
So is forced to stay in Leisure until 9.30p.m.
Of course, I wished to stay back beside,
So I phoned my bro and tell him I’m staying.
Since that time is about 6 something,
And that fella’s brother is going to watch a movie,
We decided to watch a movie too.
灵灵狗。
It’s a very hilarious comedy~
But it lacks of a plot, seriously.
Though I have fun in there…
Once again, the arm is embracing me,
Half way through, that fella looked at me,
“Erm… You… Haiz. Nevermind la. You’ll be freeze to death.”
I think I know what does it means, so I hold on the hand.
Wow… It’s so freezing cold…
So I decided to warm it up, although that fella did warned.
“Don’t touch me, it’s very cold. You’ll freeze to death.”
I did not say another single word, but just grabbed on the hand.
Trying to warm it up.
Until I realize my hands wasn’t enough.
And I have this thought of…
Putting it into my chest. @///@
Okay, that’s not going to happen.
So instead of that, I just use my face to warm it up.
Haha?
Better than using the chest, right? >w>
After the very hilarious movie, we went out.
Still, I'm not satisfied with this...
I wished to have more...
And more...
And more...
Am I a bit greedy?
=w=
I guess so...
~ Mainichi… ~
Speaking of which,
I’m very curious about whether that fella mind me to hold hands with.
I sms’ed like this (Of course I took out all the not important details)
“Hey, do you mind if I hold hands?”
Immediately, I got the reply…
“With who?”
Huh… I was sleeping already… (I expect no reply…)
“With you la who else!”
“Why should I mind?
Wei, you actually want more is it?
If not why Kou ask so?
Well, when I say I don’t mind I mean it.”
The next thing I do, is to phone, and said.
“Kou is just kidding la. Don’t take it serious!”
But then, I was asked back.
“Even though it's a joke, don't you want it?”
Well, of course I wanted it!!!
Who the heck do not want a kiss from their loved one?!
=w=
But...
Want is want...
Whether you can do it, it's still a problem.
“What 'can do it'? If you really want, I'm fine with it.”
Maybe, you're fine with it.
But... I'm not.
I don't know.
When I knew that I'm allowed to, I'm happy.
Yet, it felt different.
I just can't allow myself to do this.
Don't ask why...
Because I don't know.
Perhaps...
Maybe it's because that fella is not serious?
Or maybe that fella think that is serious enough,
But it's not, actually.
To me, that fella is just half-experimenting.
Maybe that's why I chose to be in a distance.
Maybe that's why I chose to not think of those stuffs...
But the funny thing about us is that...
We actually talked about what will happen to us in the future.
Owo
I know.
It's weird.
And...
The conversation and discussion is weird, too...
I even told that fella 'bout the stuffs of my family...
(Hmm… Those stuffs I’ve noted in the blog.)
And...
Talked until midnight 1a.m...
=w=
Uhuh...
So damn tired the next day…
~ Kyou: 11/8 ~
Then today…
I ponteng my class alongside with that fella,
In my empty class.
In the outside, we looked like we’re discussing about club stuffs.
But in the inside, we’re actually talking about…
“What the stuffs that you don’t eat?”
“Ello miss, the stuffs I don’t eat are a lot okay?”
“I know. Okay la. Then… What’re the stuffs you eat?”
“Erm… Ahaha… Think a lil’, those I eat are a lot too…”
=w= What the… Okay…?
“Hmm… I eat… Maybe… Prawns? Ahh, prawns are good~
You peel the shells, and eat it like that, it’s really good~”
By the time that fella mentioned prawn, I’ve already write it down.
The procedure of how to prepare the prawn, I’ve also written down.
Every words and every important details, I did not missed out.
Since when I’m so fond of cooking?
Well…
As soon as I knew that that fella likes the Cold Soba I made,
I have this thought of:
“Okay, I’m going to make for that fella everyday.”
Perhaps… I’m really fond of that fella.
And that’s why… I did so much about it…
But then, I was asked.
“Actually… Why do you want to do so much?
Why do you want to go through all the troubles?”
“Hmm? Just… For fun?”
For fun, is not an answer, actually…
“I did it just for you.”
This is my true answer.
But… I don’t know why, I just twist my answer.
Hmm…
Can’t I be straightforward towards that fella?
I don’t know…
Perhaps, I’m still afraid.
Afraid of that fella, afraid of myself.
Or…
Hmm…
Maybe it’s because the environment doesn’t allow me to be straightforward?
Just because…
There’s a lot of students around there when I’m being asked?
Hmm…
Maybe…
Still…
I can’t help but thinking…
Am I worthy to be alongside that fella?
Can I protect that fella?
Does that fella liked me back?
Or just being “coorperative” with me, play this “game” with me?
Or…
That fella just don’t mind me at all?
Haiz…
I really do not know…
I’m so damn blurred…
Perhaps someone around me can give me the answer.
If they knew who that fella is,
If they knew all about that fella,
If they knew the whole situation.
But the point is, no one knows about it.
So no one can give me the answer.
No one but that fella.
No, I don’t think that fella even know what self is thinking.
So I’m alone again.
To think this by my own self…
Although it’s a good thing, somehow…
Haiz…
I’m not going to sleep tonight…
But…
At least I can phone that fella?
Hmm…
Haha, peace out for now~
> Nee, Shitteru?
Genre: Pop
Tone: Kinda sour-ish
Theme: Confused love???
Instruments: Electric Guitar, Drum, Bass, Keyboard
Vocal: Me
ねえ、知ってる？
貴方の事をどんな好きで？
何時までも
貴方の事を考えて
朝から夜に
何処までも貴方の事を
あたしの心にずっと考えて
今、貴方を会いたいよ
貴方と一緒欲しいよ
こんな近くでも
如何して遠い見たいの？
何故、一緒に駄目だよ？
まだ恋人じゃないの？
訊ねる欲しいよ
でも怖かったよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、知ってる？
貴方の事をどんな気にって？
何処までも
あたしだけと一緒欲しいよ
多分嫉妬でしょ？
貴方とあたし以外の人一緒
だってその時あたし不安に感じた
今、あたし達の関係は
一体何だろうか？
こんな近くでも
まだ遠い見たいよ
何故、説明に駄目だよ？
あたし本とに知らないよ
あと少しの日々
もう時間ないだよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、あたしの言葉は
届けたい出きるか？
その時貴方の
答え何だろうか？
今、貴方を会いたいよ
貴方と一緒欲しいよ
こんな近くでも
如何して遠い見たいの？
何故、一緒に駄目だよ？
まだ恋人じゃないの？
訊ねる欲しいよ
でも怖かったよ
今、あたし達の関係は
一体何だろうか？
こんな近くでも
まだ遠い見たいよ
何故、説明に駄目だよ？
あたし本とに知らないよ
あと少しの日々
もう時間ないだよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、知ってる？
あたしの思いを
ねえ、知ってる？
Ahh~ How much I love this song~ XD Okay, skip that.
The whole week had a lots of funs, and a lots of troubles.
The good part of this week has… plenty? XD
First of all,
Pn. Lim agreed to let us make the Vampire Knight uniform for us to wear during Hajimari no Aki.
Then, I have finally finished doing, and typing the whole project and handed into Pn. Patricia.
Although she did not said that she approved it, but she’s going to discuss with Pn. Lim.
It means… THIS PROJECT WILL GO WELL!!! YES!!!
Mwahahahaha~~~ My efforts didn’t go wasted!!!
~ Getsuyoubi ~
On Monday, we went to Kou’s house and see him make his experimental toast.
It’s quite nice, yes, but… =w= It requires a lot of time and stuffs… Haiz…
That fella and I were waiting in his room.
What the heck, he told me not to do anything weird!
As if he’s not doing anything weird outside from the room!
With Zen!!! =w=
Grr… I hate him for some reasons…
But thanks to Zen, I have a REALLY good time with that fella~ Nyan~ ^w^
Well, Zen drove us to the Guitar Store to buy the bass.
So on the car, that fella and I were sitting on the back.
We’re like playing and talking…
Then suddenly that fella talked about one topic, and made me go “Nyan”.
The embarrased style of “Nyan”, or the guilty “Nyan”, I forgot…
Then…
I can’t believe that fella let me sleep on!
No, to be exact, I can’t believe that fella put one arm around my neck…
And dragged me to be closer towards the… chest?
Okay, it’s not exactly the chest.
It’s above the chest.
I’m not that short. =w=
Then, that fella go and pet my head, and said:
“He la, he la. (Hokkien? Not sure)”
So I rested my head on that fella’s… above the chest.
(Seriously, what does that part called as? The bone part? =w=)
It feels so good~
But it ends very quickly.
Why?
Thanks to some certain idiots in front of me,
Playing and acting so closely with each other!!!
Makes me feel weird all of the sudden, and blurted out.
“Err… Okay, it’s weird.”
Then that fella replied me while taking the arm back.
“You also know hor.”
Argh! My arm! Ah, no. I mean, that fella’s arm! =w=
It’s not circling me anymore!!! +w+
Grr… I hate you Kou!!! I shall blame you with this!!! \w/
Mrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwww!!!!!! *glares*
So, we’re in Guitar Store after that.
It’s a bass that we wanted to buy.
But that fella didn’t have much money, so I kind of borrow first.
Well, although that fella DID tell me that returning the money is like…
Several 100 years later.
But I paid for it anyway. Haha.
And I do thought of buying that as a gift… Hahaha…
(And I was scolded for saying so. X3
Although I received a pet very soon too. ^w^)
The most amazing thing of that fella is that…
The bass’ original price is RM890.
But is cut down to RM770 (I think, or lower than that owO)
OMG… How can that fella did that?!?!
What did that fella said to the shop owner?!?! Owo
I was kind of shocked when I saw the final price…
After adding in all those champlang stuffs…
Like the bags and all that…
It’s not even the original price of the bass!!!
It’s just RM850-+!!!
OMG!!! OwO
Okay, that fella is really a Kami-sama… =w=
Sasuga goshujin-sama… Sugoi!!! ‘w’
After buying the bass,
we decided to go to Giant in Connaught to see the prices.
So we’re in Zen’s car again.
And… All 4 of us are again, in a very lovely matter.
If I can say that?
Well, at least those 2 in front of us are. =w=
Hate them.
Especially when we’re in Giant.
I can’t believe they’re like, kissing in front of me!!!
GRAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
And I’m like making a big fuss out of it.
That fella heard me, but didn’t know what’s wrong.
So those 2 were asked to do it again,
Against my damn protest about doing it again.
Don’t want to see it again, I quickly walk out.
I knew they did it, and that fella only “Oh”ed at it.
How unemotional. =w=
So after that, Kou asked that fella.
“Ei, you don’t mind kissing with people?”
“Of course. It’s not the first time anyway.”
Then Kou looked at me one kind, and I nodded.
I knew it for a long time.
Well, that fella told me anyway.
Right after Shirly asked me to ask that fella.
So… That fella told me. Yeah.
Although I acted nothing, but actually I’m kind of…
Jealous.
Yeah. That’s the best word… I think?
Because it’s not something that hurts me, but…
Hmm…
Not sure. It’s kinda sour-ish…
So…
Maybe?
Haiz…
Then I’m alone with Zen for a while,
As Kou and that fella are looking at those prices.
So we’re like talking about our relationships.
“Why do you give out so much to that fella?” He asked.
“Hmm… Dunno? Because… I feel like it?”
“You’ll regret later.”
“Ha, talk about yourself.”
“Haiz. I’m very painful now, you know?”
“Yeah, I know.”
Then we’re going to talk more about it,
But Kou and that fella looked back at us.
They have the “What?” look at us, but we shook it off.
Haha?
“Even if you don’t feel anything for me.”
Heh, that fella will never know how I really felt.
To be by side.
To be together.
“Atashi, mada, anata no soba ni itai.”
To be the one that wants the other to be happy.
To be the one that wished self to be happy,
But knows that its hard to achieve.
Still, I’m happy to be with that fella.
“Just because I’m in love with you”
But…
Hey, do you know?
How much that I love you?
How much that I think of you?
To be held by you…
To be whispered by you…
To be with you…
“Nee, shitteru?”
Ahaha, another song of mine.
Okay, don’t mind that, skip~
~ Doyoubi ~
Then... Saturday, my best day...
(And a small event made it turn into a semi-bad day in the week.)
I'm able to go on a date with that fella!!! Nya~n!!! ^w^
I purposely put on an entirely different me up too.
By making myself look more girlish than usual.
Although in Hip-Hop style XD
That didn't waste my 1 hour effort in picking the best clothing.
(That fella said that I'm kawaii~~~ see below.)
Mwahahahaha~~~
I'm so happy 'bout it.
Of course, I didn't put on the happy face...
Just kept on “Yes! Yosya!! Yatta!!!” in my mind.
Hahas?
When we're in Zen's car, we're acting lovely duey again~
Heheheh~
This time, I'm able to sleep longer in that fella's...
Above chest. X3
And... I'm able to pull the arm closer and feel it with my lips.
Damn!!!
It's so smooth!
Yet the master of the arm said it's not...
And mine's smoother.
Huh...
I do think that that fella's arm is smoother though...
We're on Zen's car, and the music is loud like hell.
I can't hear a single word what Kou is talking 'bout.
Then, we're talking about something,
That makes me chose to listen finish Halo first,
Before answering them.
I think it's something that embarrassed me... X3
Anyway, at the back, we decided to move towards the left,
'cause the sun in on the right,
And that fella hates the sun.
So we sat closer, and that feel is really good~
Heheh~
It's not long until we reach times square car park.
Then, we began to notice that there's animal patterns on the pillars.
We're making so much fun out of it. Haha~
The first thing that I do when I straight come down from the car is...
Hold that fella's arm.
Well, since that fella didn't mind, so I just hold it.
Often, I complimented about the skin,
Saying that it's smooth, and rub mine with it.
OMG, the feel is just so good~
(Okay, please don't think pervy. It's just arm to arm.)
I can nearly imagine myself with love patterns all around my head.
Nya~n~
Can't help but meow'ed out~
Hmm… Basically, we just kept on roaming around without a purpose.
Not really that exciting, if you ask me.
And that fella just stop by any bookstores that was spotted.
Haiz…
But I’m still happy, to be with that fella.
At least I can grab on the arm for the whole day ^w^
But one thing for sure is that…
Most stuffs in the food court is UNEDIBLE.
Okay, maybe not that much, but they sucks =w=
Do not simply buy any food.
Of course, you can try out the Italian Food.
Kou said that it’s nice (although he chose other food that day…)
Some bad foods to note are…
The western food that’s cooked by the Malays,
Which they use the BBQ like thing to grill the foods…
Eww…
Never want to eat that again…
After eating, we went and look for A1 Taylor’s location.
But when we phoned them, they said that they’re near Bkt. Bintang.
Not in times.
=w=
What the heck?!
…Haiz, fine.
Well, we ended up in the place where the Japanese Food Fare is held.
Yay~ I grabbed plenty stuffs there~
Mwahahahaha~
I grabbed a lot of chocos, the ingredients to cook cold soba…
And I grab the foods without any limit. =w=
Whatever I see the stuffs that I wanted,
I just grab it and threw them into the basket…
That fella looked at me like this. O0O
Ahahaha… >w>
Ended up… The total is…
RM170++
OMG… OwO
I shocked at that moment…
What’s more heartbreaking than that is…
I accidentally broke a huge glass of wine that cost RM62++
TwT
There goes my items… Giving back to the person…
5555~ TwT
And that basically turn the day quite bad.
But we quickly get over it.
We decided to choose a place to calculate the prices for everything.
So we went to Old Town and take a break there.
The best thing is…
Kou decided to belanja us ^w^
Sankyu ne, Kou~
Still…
I can’t believe that fella ate the egg yorks without anything…
And the worst thing about it is the egg whites are not being eaten…
And what’s next?
Kou and I grabbed the plate away, and stopped the crime (?!).
The law of eating the half-boiled egg is to add the spices in…
WHEN IT’S HALF RAW!!! =w=
This egg… It’s like… 80% cooked…
Haiz…
But it’s still nice. Somehow…
Eggs are always nice… I think?
Yeah…
After the short break, we decided to go back to LM.
We’re in Zen’s car again.
Phew… I’m so tired…
Feel like sleeping…
Then…
I’m in that fella’s embrace again.
Ahhh… This feel is just so nice…
I can smell the scent of the shampoo from here.
Ehehe~ ^///^
Then I asked that fella…
“Do you know why I dressed up like this today?”
“Hmm… Is it because you heard I said something?”
“Mmm… you said a lot of things…
Like…
‘You wear like this will be very kawaii…”
“Yeah. It is cute.”
Nya~n~ I’m smiling inside my heart that moment~
There's more stuffs after that, but I don't want to spread it out...
Not now.
Eheheh~
When we arrived in Leisure, we went to find that fella’s brother.
Well, that fella got no one to fetch back,
So is forced to stay in Leisure until 9.30p.m.
Of course, I wished to stay back beside,
So I phoned my bro and tell him I’m staying.
Since that time is about 6 something,
And that fella’s brother is going to watch a movie,
We decided to watch a movie too.
灵灵狗。
It’s a very hilarious comedy~
But it lacks of a plot, seriously.
Though I have fun in there…
Once again, the arm is embracing me,
Half way through, that fella looked at me,
“Erm… You… Haiz. Nevermind la. You’ll be freeze to death.”
I think I know what does it means, so I hold on the hand.
Wow… It’s so freezing cold…
So I decided to warm it up, although that fella did warned.
“Don’t touch me, it’s very cold. You’ll freeze to death.”
I did not say another single word, but just grabbed on the hand.
Trying to warm it up.
Until I realize my hands wasn’t enough.
And I have this thought of…
Putting it into my chest. @///@
Okay, that’s not going to happen.
So instead of that, I just use my face to warm it up.
Haha?
Better than using the chest, right? >w>
After the very hilarious movie, we went out.
Still, I'm not satisfied with this...
I wished to have more...
And more...
And more...
Am I a bit greedy?
=w=
I guess so...
~ Mainichi… ~
Speaking of which,
I’m very curious about whether that fella mind me to hold hands with.
I sms’ed like this (Of course I took out all the not important details)
“Hey, do you mind if I hold hands?”
Immediately, I got the reply…
“With who?”
Huh… I was sleeping already… (I expect no reply…)
“With you la who else!”
“Why should I mind?
Wei, you actually want more is it?
If not why Kou ask so?
Well, when I say I don’t mind I mean it.”
The next thing I do, is to phone, and said.
“Kou is just kidding la. Don’t take it serious!”
But then, I was asked back.
“Even though it's a joke, don't you want it?”
Well, of course I wanted it!!!
Who the heck do not want a kiss from their loved one?!
=w=
But...
Want is want...
Whether you can do it, it's still a problem.
“What 'can do it'? If you really want, I'm fine with it.”
Maybe, you're fine with it.
But... I'm not.
I don't know.
When I knew that I'm allowed to, I'm happy.
Yet, it felt different.
I just can't allow myself to do this.
Don't ask why...
Because I don't know.
Perhaps...
Maybe it's because that fella is not serious?
Or maybe that fella think that is serious enough,
But it's not, actually.
To me, that fella is just half-experimenting.
Maybe that's why I chose to be in a distance.
Maybe that's why I chose to not think of those stuffs...
But the funny thing about us is that...
We actually talked about what will happen to us in the future.
Owo
I know.
It's weird.
And...
The conversation and discussion is weird, too...
I even told that fella 'bout the stuffs of my family...
(Hmm… Those stuffs I’ve noted in the blog.)
And...
Talked until midnight 1a.m...
=w=
Uhuh...
So damn tired the next day…
~ Kyou: 11/8 ~
Then today…
I ponteng my class alongside with that fella,
In my empty class.
In the outside, we looked like we’re discussing about club stuffs.
But in the inside, we’re actually talking about…
“What the stuffs that you don’t eat?”
“Ello miss, the stuffs I don’t eat are a lot okay?”
“I know. Okay la. Then… What’re the stuffs you eat?”
“Erm… Ahaha… Think a lil’, those I eat are a lot too…”
=w= What the… Okay…?
“Hmm… I eat… Maybe… Prawns? Ahh, prawns are good~
You peel the shells, and eat it like that, it’s really good~”
By the time that fella mentioned prawn, I’ve already write it down.
The procedure of how to prepare the prawn, I’ve also written down.
Every words and every important details, I did not missed out.
Since when I’m so fond of cooking?
Well…
As soon as I knew that that fella likes the Cold Soba I made,
I have this thought of:
“Okay, I’m going to make for that fella everyday.”
Perhaps… I’m really fond of that fella.
And that’s why… I did so much about it…
But then, I was asked.
“Actually… Why do you want to do so much?
Why do you want to go through all the troubles?”
“Hmm? Just… For fun?”
For fun, is not an answer, actually…
“I did it just for you.”
This is my true answer.
But… I don’t know why, I just twist my answer.
Hmm…
Can’t I be straightforward towards that fella?
I don’t know…
Perhaps, I’m still afraid.
Afraid of that fella, afraid of myself.
Or…
Hmm…
Maybe it’s because the environment doesn’t allow me to be straightforward?
Just because…
There’s a lot of students around there when I’m being asked?
Hmm…
Maybe…
Still…
I can’t help but thinking…
Am I worthy to be alongside that fella?
Can I protect that fella?
Does that fella liked me back?
Or just being “coorperative” with me, play this “game” with me?
Or…
That fella just don’t mind me at all?
Haiz…
I really do not know…
I’m so damn blurred…
Perhaps someone around me can give me the answer.
If they knew who that fella is,
If they knew all about that fella,
If they knew the whole situation.
But the point is, no one knows about it.
So no one can give me the answer.
No one but that fella.
No, I don’t think that fella even know what self is thinking.
So I’m alone again.
To think this by my own self…
Although it’s a good thing, somehow…
Haiz…
I’m not going to sleep tonight…
But…
At least I can phone that fella?
Hmm…
Haha, peace out for now~
> Nee, Shitteru?
Genre: Pop
Tone: Kinda sour-ish
Theme: Confused love???
Instruments: Electric Guitar, Drum, Bass, Keyboard
Vocal: Me
ねえ、知ってる？
貴方の事をどんな好きで？
何時までも
貴方の事を考えて
朝から夜に
何処までも貴方の事を
あたしの心にずっと考えて
今、貴方を会いたいよ
貴方と一緒欲しいよ
こんな近くでも
如何して遠い見たいの？
何故、一緒に駄目だよ？
まだ恋人じゃないの？
訊ねる欲しいよ
でも怖かったよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、知ってる？
貴方の事をどんな気にって？
何処までも
あたしだけと一緒欲しいよ
多分嫉妬でしょ？
貴方とあたし以外の人一緒
だってその時あたし不安に感じた
今、あたし達の関係は
一体何だろうか？
こんな近くでも
まだ遠い見たいよ
何故、説明に駄目だよ？
あたし本とに知らないよ
あと少しの日々
もう時間ないだよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、あたしの言葉は
届けたい出きるか？
その時貴方の
答え何だろうか？
今、貴方を会いたいよ
貴方と一緒欲しいよ
こんな近くでも
如何して遠い見たいの？
何故、一緒に駄目だよ？
まだ恋人じゃないの？
訊ねる欲しいよ
でも怖かったよ
今、あたし達の関係は
一体何だろうか？
こんな近くでも
まだ遠い見たいよ
何故、説明に駄目だよ？
あたし本とに知らないよ
あと少しの日々
もう時間ないだよ
ねえ、知ってる？
ねえ、知ってる？
あたしの思いを
ねえ、知ってる？
Monday, August 10, 2009
:: 気持ち最大悪いAries Part 4 ::
Insert: Pride of Glory (by Mizuki Nana)
‘Kay. I really hate my family. My parents. My siblings.
All of them
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
Nikui.
Kirai.
Koroshitai.
Nani mo nai.
Tada atashi hitori.
Every and each of them are tricksters.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
Why do I hate them?
Thanks to my good-for-nothing sis-in-law,
As she’s going to give birth to a niece or a nephew,
I’m going to be force out from this big room,
Where I can originally planned this place out from my blueprint.
But now, my hopes are all gone.
My damned parents – no,
To be exact, my mom.
Her determination of letting my bro into this big room.
Where can I live from now on?
That wretched place of his.
Okay, fine.
Since I’m able to use the internet for days and weeks without his damned permission anymore.
But no.
That’s not the point.
What about my stuffs?
My books, and equipments, my keyboard, my clothes?
Heck, I have no place to put ‘em anymore.
Where will they go?
80%, the storeroom.
Great. Very, great.
My mangas.
My reference.
My music books.
All gone into the storeroom.
Then, my future drum set?
Gone, too.
Not enough space, as said.
So how?
Can I move out?
No.
“Wah, you got wings already la?
Can fly already la?”
Yeah, so how?!
What’s wrong with that?!
Do you have a damned problem?!
Okay, let’s say.
I have the money problem.
Dude, I can do part times!
I’m not a damn kid anymore!
Then, food problem, you say?
Heck, I can cook that good-for-nothing Soba by myself!
Just for once of failure!
What’s next? Cleaning?
Hell, I can clean it myself.
I don’t need you to do it for me.
I don’t care if it’s only me.
I JUST WANT TO BE DAMNED ALONE FROM YOU ALL!!!
FOR GODDESS SAKE!!!
Then, what I’m going to study?
Music.
Okay, fine.
Teacher suggested me to study here first before going elsewhere,
Then since I’m going to study arrangements and composings,
He suggested me to take that piano up to my room,
And learn the drums.
No.
Nonono.
Why?
Because I’m going to give out my big room, and I do not have space anymore.
And if that’s not the main reason, then this is:
“The piano is hard to carry up! We need to hire pros.”
Then hire la dammit!!!
If you do not want to give up a single penny, then fine.
I’ll do it.
Even when I’ve loss my RM63+- to pay up for that damned broken bottle,
Even when I’ve given up my RM900 for that bass,
I’m still willing to hiring people to get that piano up.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED TO SEE YOUR DAMNED FACE,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED YOUR DAMNED PERMISSION,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED TO HOLD BACK,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
So that I can be alone.
Yes, the main reason.
And so, my mum was like making a big fuss.
“Study music, so troublesome.
Need to buy this buy that.
Do this do that.
Your brother and sister don’t even need all of these!
Just go and study accounts then can already!”
Yeah, right!
Then why on the first place you put me for taking piano courses?
Then why on the first place you wanted me to be a musician?
A music teacher?
Blah, blah, blah?!
Then when I want to be in econ classes, you’re making another fuss?!
And now, thanks to that I’m good in accounting,
you want me to take accounting?!
So that I can help the family out?!
By when I decided to study fully in music?!?!
To be exact, from the beginning…
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE INTERFERE IN WHATEVER I WANTED.
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE INFLUENCE IN WHATEVER I LIKED.
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE DONE ALL OF THOSE.
AND MADE ME WHAT I AM NOW.
And thanks to your overprotective,
You made me what you can’t believe now.
A useless human, who can’t do housechores, who can’t cook,
Who can do nothing but making a fuss.
Who’s fault is that to blame?
Who’s responsible when they restrict the person to do so?
Who’s the wrong over here?
Why can’t you be a lil’ open up and let me do whatever I wanted?
But not whatever YOU wanted?
Why can’t you do that?
No.
No one, none parents, in this world, would do so.
They would try to restrict, and force their child to do else stuffs.
There’s no such parent that could even 100% understood their children.
No, and never.
Trust me.
BECAUSE THEY JUST LIKE TO CONTROL.
BECAUSE THEY JUST LIKE TO MAKE THEIR DREAMS COME TRUE.
BECAUSE OF THEIR DAMNED STYLE OF LOVE.
BECAUSE THEY JUST BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES.
NOT THEIR CHILD.
NOT THE TEACHERS.
NOT THE PROS.
NOT THE TRUTH.
BUT ONLY THEM AND ONLY THEMSELVES.
AND THEY DO NOT THINK OF THE TRUE SEQUENCES,
OF WHAT THEY'RE DOING,
TOWARDS US.
TOWARDS THEIR CHILD.
AND WHAT’S GOING TO BE OF THEIR CHILD.
No, and never.
Seriously, get a damned life!
You’ll be absolutely okay without me, right?
Why should you even care for it?
I don’t care about you anyway?!
Hell, don’t interfere with my life!!
How I will become is all my doing, not yours!
I don’t need your help.
I don’t need explain to you.
I don’t need YOU.
Just GDFDGTHD!!!!!!
GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Yet.
I can't stand up against them.
I can't tell them how much I hate them.
Why?
Perhaps I'm kind.
Perhaps I'm just a good kid.
But I know the main reason.
I'm a coward.
I knew that all along.
And that's why, I just chose to remain silence.
Even though they said the wrong thing,
Even though they misunderstood my true intention,
Even though they assumed that I'm like that,
Even though...
I nothing like that at all.
And so, I remain silence.
But then, they would scold me for remain silence.
Then how 'bout I talk back towards them?
They would scold even much.
And they would say...
“你越长越大，越来越不礼貌。”
Uhuh.
So that's how you see me eh?
No matter how much I follow what you told me to do eh?
And so I did.
And this is what I get?
Good.
Perfectly good.
I can still remember that day when my sister said this.
“你没有立场说话。”
Huh.
Then I wished to say.
If I'm not in the position to talk,
Then what is your position to say about me?
But I did not say a word.
Just because I'm afraid...
Or perhaps, I just don't feel like talking back to these idiots...
Because they just won't understand a single thing that I said.
Because they just won't consider whatever that I've said.
Because they just won't LISTEN.
And so, again, I remain silence.
They said silence is bliss.
Well, at least my friends said that >w>
And so, I will remain silence.
Even when they asked of me, I will not say a word.
Until they really forced me to it.
Or...
Maybe I will say a lil'.
The me lately.
Maybe I've grew with some courage inside of me.
Thanks to Kou and Yuki, perhaps?
Since they encourage me to talk? =w=
Uhuh...
Or perhaps not.
Perhaps I'm just... Rebellious since I am born to this world.
But I just don't have the opportunity to talk about it.
Hmm...
Either way, I'm just dislike this family.
More to the level of HATE.
Phew...
I talked a lot.
I mean, I wrote a lot.
Yet, it's not the end of the story.
Behind this wretched family that I'm born into.
Peace out at the moment...
‘Kay. I really hate my family. My parents. My siblings.
All of them
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
Nikui.
Kirai.
Koroshitai.
Nani mo nai.
Tada atashi hitori.
Every and each of them are tricksters.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
Why do I hate them?
Thanks to my good-for-nothing sis-in-law,
As she’s going to give birth to a niece or a nephew,
I’m going to be force out from this big room,
Where I can originally planned this place out from my blueprint.
But now, my hopes are all gone.
My damned parents – no,
To be exact, my mom.
Her determination of letting my bro into this big room.
Where can I live from now on?
That wretched place of his.
Okay, fine.
Since I’m able to use the internet for days and weeks without his damned permission anymore.
But no.
That’s not the point.
What about my stuffs?
My books, and equipments, my keyboard, my clothes?
Heck, I have no place to put ‘em anymore.
Where will they go?
80%, the storeroom.
Great. Very, great.
My mangas.
My reference.
My music books.
All gone into the storeroom.
Then, my future drum set?
Gone, too.
Not enough space, as said.
So how?
Can I move out?
No.
“Wah, you got wings already la?
Can fly already la?”
Yeah, so how?!
What’s wrong with that?!
Do you have a damned problem?!
Okay, let’s say.
I have the money problem.
Dude, I can do part times!
I’m not a damn kid anymore!
Then, food problem, you say?
Heck, I can cook that good-for-nothing Soba by myself!
Just for once of failure!
What’s next? Cleaning?
Hell, I can clean it myself.
I don’t need you to do it for me.
I don’t care if it’s only me.
I JUST WANT TO BE DAMNED ALONE FROM YOU ALL!!!
FOR GODDESS SAKE!!!
Then, what I’m going to study?
Music.
Okay, fine.
Teacher suggested me to study here first before going elsewhere,
Then since I’m going to study arrangements and composings,
He suggested me to take that piano up to my room,
And learn the drums.
No.
Nonono.
Why?
Because I’m going to give out my big room, and I do not have space anymore.
And if that’s not the main reason, then this is:
“The piano is hard to carry up! We need to hire pros.”
Then hire la dammit!!!
If you do not want to give up a single penny, then fine.
I’ll do it.
Even when I’ve loss my RM63+- to pay up for that damned broken bottle,
Even when I’ve given up my RM900 for that bass,
I’m still willing to hiring people to get that piano up.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED TO SEE YOUR DAMNED FACE,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED YOUR DAMNED PERMISSION,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
SO THAT I DON’T NEED TO HOLD BACK,
EVERYTIME I PLAY.
So that I can be alone.
Yes, the main reason.
And so, my mum was like making a big fuss.
“Study music, so troublesome.
Need to buy this buy that.
Do this do that.
Your brother and sister don’t even need all of these!
Just go and study accounts then can already!”
Yeah, right!
Then why on the first place you put me for taking piano courses?
Then why on the first place you wanted me to be a musician?
A music teacher?
Blah, blah, blah?!
Then when I want to be in econ classes, you’re making another fuss?!
And now, thanks to that I’m good in accounting,
you want me to take accounting?!
So that I can help the family out?!
By when I decided to study fully in music?!?!
To be exact, from the beginning…
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE INTERFERE IN WHATEVER I WANTED.
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE INFLUENCE IN WHATEVER I LIKED.
YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE DONE ALL OF THOSE.
AND MADE ME WHAT I AM NOW.
And thanks to your overprotective,
You made me what you can’t believe now.
A useless human, who can’t do housechores, who can’t cook,
Who can do nothing but making a fuss.
Who’s fault is that to blame?
Who’s responsible when they restrict the person to do so?
Who’s the wrong over here?
Why can’t you be a lil’ open up and let me do whatever I wanted?
But not whatever YOU wanted?
Why can’t you do that?
No.
No one, none parents, in this world, would do so.
They would try to restrict, and force their child to do else stuffs.
There’s no such parent that could even 100% understood their children.
No, and never.
Trust me.
BECAUSE THEY JUST LIKE TO CONTROL.
BECAUSE THEY JUST LIKE TO MAKE THEIR DREAMS COME TRUE.
BECAUSE OF THEIR DAMNED STYLE OF LOVE.
BECAUSE THEY JUST BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES.
NOT THEIR CHILD.
NOT THE TEACHERS.
NOT THE PROS.
NOT THE TRUTH.
BUT ONLY THEM AND ONLY THEMSELVES.
AND THEY DO NOT THINK OF THE TRUE SEQUENCES,
OF WHAT THEY'RE DOING,
TOWARDS US.
TOWARDS THEIR CHILD.
AND WHAT’S GOING TO BE OF THEIR CHILD.
No, and never.
Seriously, get a damned life!
You’ll be absolutely okay without me, right?
Why should you even care for it?
I don’t care about you anyway?!
Hell, don’t interfere with my life!!
How I will become is all my doing, not yours!
I don’t need your help.
I don’t need explain to you.
I don’t need YOU.
Just GDFDGTHD!!!!!!
GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Yet.
I can't stand up against them.
I can't tell them how much I hate them.
Why?
Perhaps I'm kind.
Perhaps I'm just a good kid.
But I know the main reason.
I'm a coward.
I knew that all along.
And that's why, I just chose to remain silence.
Even though they said the wrong thing,
Even though they misunderstood my true intention,
Even though they assumed that I'm like that,
Even though...
I nothing like that at all.
And so, I remain silence.
But then, they would scold me for remain silence.
Then how 'bout I talk back towards them?
They would scold even much.
And they would say...
“你越长越大，越来越不礼貌。”
Uhuh.
So that's how you see me eh?
No matter how much I follow what you told me to do eh?
And so I did.
And this is what I get?
Good.
Perfectly good.
I can still remember that day when my sister said this.
“你没有立场说话。”
Huh.
Then I wished to say.
If I'm not in the position to talk,
Then what is your position to say about me?
But I did not say a word.
Just because I'm afraid...
Or perhaps, I just don't feel like talking back to these idiots...
Because they just won't understand a single thing that I said.
Because they just won't consider whatever that I've said.
Because they just won't LISTEN.
And so, again, I remain silence.
They said silence is bliss.
Well, at least my friends said that >w>
And so, I will remain silence.
Even when they asked of me, I will not say a word.
Until they really forced me to it.
Or...
Maybe I will say a lil'.
The me lately.
Maybe I've grew with some courage inside of me.
Thanks to Kou and Yuki, perhaps?
Since they encourage me to talk? =w=
Uhuh...
Or perhaps not.
Perhaps I'm just... Rebellious since I am born to this world.
But I just don't have the opportunity to talk about it.
Hmm...
Either way, I'm just dislike this family.
More to the level of HATE.
Phew...
I talked a lot.
I mean, I wrote a lot.
Yet, it's not the end of the story.
Behind this wretched family that I'm born into.
Peace out at the moment...
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